It was interesting to get three different perspectives of this on one single evening. Two from very good friends and one from my own life. First dear friend is a graduate student in one of the good universities in US and his view was valid. He said despite a dull boring graduate life with no growth to look forward for the next few years and no salary hikes to expect, the thing that kept him interested was discovering new problems to work on every single day. That gave him the rush required to push through life which was devoid of all personal stuff including girl friends.

The second thought arose from my own experience. I got bored doing the same day to day stuff at job. Moved on to pursue masters in management, got bored of that in a while and then life took a whole new turn. It got all the more exciting and every day was new in one sense or the another. Last perspective was from a very good friend again. Her life is full of changes and boy they are all mostly bad. It is in these times when one wishes that monotony is much better than such changes. I sincerely pray that her life gets back to normal.

Ruminating on these different ideas, I end up thinking very philosophically, or one may even call it religious but there does seem to that something that changes times for people, creates experiences out of thin air and keeps an organism ticking be it the primal desire for food to the more sophisticated need for money or power. Call it whatever, precisely when I was thinking about all this when I came across this book in tamil whose title translates to “Secrets of Romance” (To all you dirty minds.. it’s not Kamasutra n its not anywhere near about sex)

The first article in the book goes on to describe how small changes, small surprises keeps the bond of marriage going on for ages and ages. It says, it is that small appreciation, that small break from routine for an unplanned outing, that small unexpected gift, that small burst of love and ever present respect for each other holds the bond of marriage and makes it enjoyable through one’s life. I haven’t experienced that part of life to comment on it, but looking at my parents makes me agree completely to this school of thought.

Along these lines came the thought that, what exactly people mean when they say “stay young at heart” ?. I believe staying young means being curious, curious of new things that bring about positive change. That passion for change seems to be driving force behind me. I’m not sure if I will ever conclusively have a reason for happiness but change seems to be definitely among the top reasons and in some strange butterfly theory fashion it seems to connect to everything else.

Warmth, such a beautiful feeling!

The feeling of being protected

Protected by my caring mother

Mother who sits over the warmth providing shell

Shell that is so pure and white

Whiteness that is in my heart

Heart that still seeks freedom

Freedom that can be only be by breaking

Breaking the shell that gives me warmth

Warmth from which I’m finally ready to break free…

” october maathathil andhi mazhai nerathil vaanavillai rasika vanden…

andhe nerathil yaarum illai thoorathil aval mattum vaanavillai rasika vandal.. “

Its been long since I listened to music and did nothing else except listen to music. Its been long since I posted too, but that doesnt matter. I have a special attachment to music, not quite unique, not quite common either. I listen to music, a lot of it but its very rare that I appreciate it. Some times, the music is so powerful that it takes your mind off everything else and makes you concentrate on the nuances of it, to flow with its stream and makes you feel a special something which cant be put rightly in words.

What makes music so godly, what makes one forget everything and adore it? I dont know. Many a times I have my head phones on, listen to every single beat of the drum, every single pluck of the guitar string forgetting the lyrics of they exist. They say music trancends language, I couldnt agree more.It doesnt need words to take your heart.The very grandeur of it can make you wonder the godliness of the creator and bow towards him.

I’m out of words, not really because I cant think but I dont want to. Music is beckoning. Adios.

1. Verbs HAS to agree with their subjects.

2. Never use a preposition to end a sentence with. Winston Churchill, corrected on this error once, responded to the young man who corrected him by saying “Young man, that is the kind of impudence up with which I will not put!

3. And don’t start a sentence with a conjunction.

4. It is wrong to ever split an infinitive.

5. Avoid cliches like the plague. (They’re old hat.)

6. Also, always avoid annoying alliteration.

7. Be more or less specific.

8. Parenthetical remarks (however relevant) are (usually) unnecessary.

9. Also too, never, ever use repetitive redundancies endlessly over and over again

10. No sentence fragments.

11. Contractions aren’t always necessary and shouldn’t be used to excess so don’t.

12. Foreign words and phrases are not always apropos.

13. Do not be redundant; do not use more words than necessary; it’s highly superfluous and can be excessive

14. All generalizations are bad.

15. Comparisons are as bad as cliches.

16. Don’t use no double negatives.

17. Avoid excessive use of ampersands & abbrevs., etc.

18. One-word sentences? Eliminate.

19. Analogies in writing are like feathers on a snake (Unless they are as good as gold).

Starting sans everything,

Plunging into beau monde,

Belief of deserving,

Dreaming Wilder,

Thinking,

Awaiting Destiny,

Calculating moves,

The Result?

Hot seat or Cold Feet,

Life is too long….

Personally, many people tell this may be worse one could face in life and as damn lucky l’m, I joined with all pride into a wall street investment bank with dreams only to find myself out on street in two months. Well not literally. I din’t know ones course of action in such situations. I did a few things, largely unsuccessfull partly because I’m not from IIT and partly so I din’t have contacts.

Retrospecting my life a few months back, It was all very different. I dint join the firm knowing fully about the culture and the pay. The fixed pay quoted by the firm was huge by my standards. Had I joined any firm in my line of study it would have taken 6-7 years even to achieve this fixed pay. Once inside I realised the fixed pay was pittance when compared to the bonuses people get every year. So does that mean I redefine my standards. I never knew until I faced this. What is more important that, when I look for opportunities, which standards do I follow.

Thankfully before I broke down, a rescue was in place and I have my job again, well atleast for enough time to think from ab-initio again. Do I do that? Do I go back to my tech? With the global economic crisis looming I have the opinion every sector is risky enough. What ever may be my future, the ride was rocky and useful to think about oneself. To know where I stand and what is important.

Looking beyond, theres only one thing I will have in mind.When it comes to it, prepare for the worst and act accordingly. More so because even trivial stuff will be great. 

Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na...

A very special one for that matter. Never have I dwelt so much on a subject like this. I wont deny I liked watching such movies before but it was never the same.

Starting from the first scene, when Aditi is crying and Jai goes and hugs her, consoles her it felt so intimate. The struggle,the nuances,the possessiveness,the jealousy there are just no words to describe them.What is that about movies that take your mind off to universe that “utopian” is understatement..

I dint expect this post to be this blatant but forgive me many feelings are too hard to hide and I dont care to hide.

When one enters a new life, I have always thought, situation grapples the soul and one ends in extreme joy or misery. Strangely enough, neither has occurred to me so far. Agreed on a personal front a complete flip has occurred but socially I’m neither great nor nobody. I don’t feel proud or low. Quest for a possible explanation, I warn you, will be nothing short of a wild goose chase but to make things simpler let’s conclude better things may come along and pitfalls are not very uncommon either.

Pardon me, for ramblings have always had a beautiful relationship with me and habits die hard. When you start writing after long and are confounded by the fact that your language has changed for better or worse, things take time getting used to. Never did it occur to me that drastic change and plethora of things to discuss will change style.

As I try to recollect my subject, Music drifts into my room, one of my most favourite films and a song that is very sentimental. Happy Days… How aptly named.. and Lo!! Behold, I’m having the happiest days of my life and what more I know how to make it last. Somebody told

“To fall in love with oneself is the beginning of a lifelong bliss”

True that I have fallen in love with myself, a different embodiment of myself.

For days that will come and for days that went past, I have become the true me and I’ve have no fears. Here I start writing my blog again, a much matured version, I hope to bring to thy readers the pleasure of understanding what we were meant to understand ab-initio

Do drop in and I promise I’ll post more frequently. For those of you who feel password protection of posts is wrong, I don’t think I’ll do it again, for a new method seems more effective. Hail Caesar!!!

Adieu